Right at this moment there are two google searches open in seperate tabs on my laptop; ‘Post Graduation Degrees in Post-Primary Education‘ and ‘How To Become a Youth Consellor‘. Both are possible paths I would like to take, both are absolutely terrifying possibilities to me, and I’m not really sure why.
To be honest, the thought of the future always scares me because it forces me to recognise that I can’t keep living in my safe little bubble and pretending that everything can stay this way forever. But it also forces me to deal with the possibility that I will fail, which is something I’ve never been great with dealing with.
I think what scares me the most about the future is that it’s not concrete, it’s not dependable and there is no set plan. I have no idea if I will persue either of these paths, I seem to be becoming quite fickle in my career choices these days, jumping from one path to another. But what I do know is that I want to make a good, and lasting impact on someone. I want to help someone achieve something, even if it’s just something small. I want to give someone the opportunity to be certain of their future, in a way that I haven’t been able to give myself.
Recently I saw an article which discussed the terrifying concept of the future for my generation, and one part addressed the fact that most of us, have been asked or ask ourselves ‘What Next?’ on a regular basis, and have been doing so from a young age. We are constantly aware of what our next step is; school, college, job, family, retirement, death. And hopefully in that order! But what happens when we miss a step, or there is what feels like an abyss between steps? It’s a terrifying feeling that leaves you feeling lost and without purpose, something I think our generation is ill equiped to deal with because we are constantly being told by our parents and society as a whole, that the only way to be successful is to follow these steps and have them each complete by a certain time. And that is just the biggest load of bullshit!
In conclusion, I’m not sure where this post started, but somehow it has ended with me being angry at the world. Again.